What are you waiting for exactly

perfect weather

or a good hair day

when you feel energized

or jazzercised

when you have your ducks in a row

or

maybe when it gets bad enough

dark enough

and you are facing a wall

or

when the sky is blue with cotton ball clouds

and the bills are all paid

and their are no weeds in your bed

when you get a raise

when you lose some weight

when you accomplish all you had

on every to do list you've ever made....

maybe then I will attempt to go in

maybe I will just know the time is right

maybe God will just tap me on the shoulder and then

I will go there

I will open that old worn out book

and I will see what is actually written down

an adventure I put off out of fear

a journey that only started with that first step

I am not willing to take

putting off what we could do today

and then

blinking and realizing

it has been a thousand tomorrows

and we cannot even recognize ourselves

a whole life coasted by

on automatic pilot

because that was way more comfy then facing our giants

our fears

then listening to that old record

that old voice that croaked

"you'll never be good enough,

or measure up

so why try? Just stick to what you are good at

and run from the rest

and dodge anything uncomfortable

it will go away on it's own."

so has it? Or has what you have avoided festered?

and why is God's perfect time

taking so forever long?

~C