waiting to understand

A decision to love yourself to put YOU first instead of waiting for leftovers or being the leftovers or letting the leftovers of your heart choose for you I have this uncanny way of waiting for something like I am eternally at a bus stop and I have grown accustomed with not going anywhere as if I am waiting for someone to walk up and hand me a ticket where THEY think I should go But I know me I know what I like and what I don't and I have ideas of where I'd like to go.... the tricky part is the "here to there" part the puzzling thing is that I rather spend my time dreaming and not all the time GOING and then I feel like a loser for not going and then I just get sad and so on and so on Choosing change has to do with just doing it with accomplishing something little and then something more building something and believing in yourself, that it is within your capacity Believing God has an adventure past your doorstep if you are just willi...

On the outside, it's where you wear your inside and you cannot hide no matter how many layers you wear or try to distract as you accessorize.... what gives you away is that you are uncomfortable you shift and you straighten but your pants don't fit and in your heart you feel you just don't fit in not in your clothes or in with your friends or in your life like they cast the wrong body to play your body. Inside there is a woman dying to be lived out that looks nothing like you who is not self conscious or stressed who walks with a little self confidence and she is thinking of you as much as you are thinking of who you could be if you put in the effort. Letting your outside meet with your inside where your thoughts become actions and actions fuel goals and by putting one foot after the other and running the miles it takes to reach her, reach you. When you are determined and when your inside and your outside become so similar the success is...