waiting to understand

Like picking at a scab I choose to go there even though it is guaranteed hurt a mix of curiosity and tragedy I seek peace and understanding in a place that only stirs up discord only reminds me of a time without peace I bite my nails until they are throbbing maybe so I can remind myself that I am still alive pain has a way of proving that growth is necessary growth causes tearing ripping what a mess my life tattered and torn no matter how I accessorize I cannot hide I am Cinderella before the magic but like her destined for the transformation to come. ~C

I know who I am I like who I am no need for hiding for lying for trying, justifying no need for fear or trying to steer no need for offense I will not straddle the fence I know I don't need to dance around letting you know what exists at the very heart of me the truth is not misunderstood and I want it to shine from me from my finger tips and toes for you to see the love pouring out from me it comes from what I know from what I believe and also in what I do.... to convey God's awesome love to you to YOU! ~C

eyes filled with love so obvious felt and processed by my heart draws me to you to that love to eyes that see me & it is so nice to be seen so good to be loved so awesome to be known appreciated adored & I am comforted knowing it will exist no matter how far away or how long it will be till I see that love in your eyes again ~C

Just like the movies and cartoons portray, there is in fact a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other each encouraging you to do something wanting you to make decisions that are either destructive and limiting or freeing and empowering the most beneficial thing you can learn to do is discern which voice is talking to you which thoughts are speaking life which thoughts are speaking death sort them out recognize them for what they are and make wise choices and before you even begin to stress over whether or not you'll know who's voice is whose or dread going there at all because it sounds like work let me tell you a little secret God promises to work all things to good in your life He will take what the devil meant for harm He will turn it all around and find a way to bless you within those same seemingly detrimental circumstances He did not command us to be anxious for nothing without first setting up a system to protect us we hear that command and we baulk at how imposs...

I have this theory... We were designed to function a certain way. If we studied that way and aimed to emulate it we might be better off, but we are creatures of design, we like to one-up each other and constantly "improve" things. So in the case of men and women for instance, the man was meant to lead. The woman is the help mate. We have totally obscured this set up. Men have abused their role of authority, women have embraced feminism. Men that have been burned by women decide to stay single forever and forgo having a help mate because freedom is safer, whatever the cost. Women that have been burned raise their daughters to be completely independent so they never have to depend on a man. This new self sufficient independent woman becomes the norm. How many marriages and families have you seen where the woman wears the pants? I don't think they were ever meant to! The situation has been distorted. The really weird offspring of these circumstances is that it creates a ma...