You Choose

Just like the movies and cartoons portray,
there is in fact a devil on one shoulder
and an angel on the other
each encouraging you to do something
wanting you to make decisions
that are either destructive and limiting
or freeing and empowering
the most beneficial thing you can learn to do
is discern which voice is talking to you
which thoughts are speaking life
which thoughts are speaking death
sort them out
recognize them for what they are
and make wise choices

and before you even begin to stress
over whether or not you'll know
who's voice is whose
or dread going there at all
because it sounds like work
let me tell you a little secret

God promises to work all things to good in your life
He will take what the devil meant for harm
He will turn it all around
and find a way to bless you
within those same seemingly detrimental circumstances

He did not command us to be anxious for nothing
without first setting up a system to protect us
we hear that command and we baulk at how impossible it seems
and it will always be impossible if we think it is
God wants us to stretch ourselves to think beyond our own capacity
He is in us as us!
We are more spirit than flesh
we just focus on the flesh more because it is what we see
it is only more real to us because it is tangible
but only focusing on what we can control limits us SO much

Nothing feels better than something we cannot make sense of
but KNOW somehow is divine or purposed for our lives
we were built to be inspired by the things we have no knowledge of
things we cannot manipulate
circumstances that SEEM flat and predictable
are ALIVE in the spiritual
God is approaching your lame job from 50 different perspectives
He is taking into account more factors than you could ever conceive in your mind

This is where trust comes in
this is where you surrender
this is where you humble yourself and admit
you don't know better than He does
and then you hand it all over and STOP
the endless pattern of trying to trust but wimping out
and taking it all back
you only do that because it feels more comfy to you
and it is only comfy because it is a pattern
not because it is GOOD or even helpful

It is weird how some patterns we create
like smoking
are so obviously bad to us
but we are oblivious to our over controlling nature
or the fact that we overcompensate for our insecurities by building walls all day
brick by brick
to shut the world out
we con ourselves into thinking that that keeps us safe
when really we create the cage we intend to live in
and then we climb in
feeling safer inside to look out through bars

God wants to wash your car
that vehicle you use to get around in
and He doesn't even want to stop there
He wants to be like the scene in Transformers
where BumbleBee transforms his "body"
into a supped up version of the Camaro he was....
YOU only better
not tormented
not worried or fearful
not caged in
or limited in ANY way

Now is the time
that YOU get to choose
Let go and leap
or stay
just as you are
Either way God is here loving you
always wanting your best
but ever the gentleman
awaiting your request

~C


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