In my Dreams

 Still trying to make peace with you

through my dreams

still showing you love and needing you to receive it

An open girl

gushing over a closed boy

so much given and taken

But I wont say wasted 

Because God always has other plans that don't end in failure

He always makes a way when there seems to be no way.


-C

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