Rubix Cube

 The rubix cube is up on the shelf covered in dust

Long ago I lost the drive to figure you out

Stopped wondering what you were thinking

and about all that went so wrong

If I poke at the old wound it still brings me to tears

but all I endured is blurred and vague

now 13 years away from all that I defined as my life 

and my Love


-C


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