waiting to understand

August 26th, 2012 God gave me a vision for Parker He showed Parker bending down to shackle his own ankle with a big metal lock & key with a heavy chain attached to a heavy weight The shackle was a burden that Parker was choosing to put on himself and then God showed me Jesus... Lovingly bending down to unlock the shackle with His power alone, He simply unhinged it and Parker stepped out... but Jesus was behind where Parkers foot was so he wasn't aware of Jesus, and then again Parker reached down to shackle himself... and again Jesus followed him patiently, silently unlocking the next one... The message was that in not seeing ourselves as free we choose to bind ourselves but God is on a relentless, tireless and loving pursuit to convince us otherwise to free us completely from all the shackles we choose to put on ourselves free us from all the things that hold us back His yoke is light His yoke is purposed His yoke should not be confused with the shackles ...

God gave me a vision this morning at worship... I had my hands out in front of me, palms up and God showed me a picture of how if I put my hands closer together it is how you put your hands out to be handcuffed. I was puzzled by this picture and asked God to explain... In our sin life we are literally harmful to ourselves we make decisions that hurt ourselves and others by allowing God to put us in handcuffs we are willing to submit to His authority we are trusting Him for his best An image that would usually make me cringe and feel trapped (being put in handcuffs) Just by picturing it being done to me, and yet God's analogy had a completely different spin. By fully trusting and submitting to His authority knowing He has our best interests at heart knowing He has every intention of removing us from a harmful situation all the while keeping the peace, intent on justice... we show Him we are powerless by holding our hands out, that we won't lean on our own un...

We have to get to the GUTS of it to be able to love The roots are where the answer is & you better hope it is a rock you are building on For how can we love another until we first know how to love ourselves? and how do we do that? How do we know which way to go if we do not default to the map? What greater guide than Jesus Christ? He built the land and then gave you the tools to navigate it He said the way isn't easy but the GLORY of the journey is great & the decision to go will be worth it He is in it with you for the long haul In fact, He knows you have Him in you so your success is guaranteed You were designed to do great things seeking after the heart of God purposed for a cause that you cannot even imagine the capacity of you just have to be willing and HE will be able ~C

Amazing God Your mystery is my favorite thing to behold the way you link lessons by connecting the dots for me The way you use people to love on me and draw me back in to the body and welcome me home and tell me how much I've been missed You intend for me to use my gifts and even during the times that I step back you send people to knock on my door and then you give me the words to comfort them The way you give me pictures to convey encouragement to others encouragement for myself knowing you are in tune with me showing me I hear Your voice Amazing God of mine You call me yours and I am deeply honored humbled by your patience and your grace I am here to learn to worship to listen to your heart as it beats in the most powerful way You are so intent on changing the world with Your love and I have a role to play you want me on your team and I am ready to play! ~C

Old school Star Wars trash compactor scene this is where I am walls closing in and the slower they compress the faster I wish they would because over, is better than waiting to end We have to choose every day choose to stay choose to stay committed to those we love chose to go choose to fight choose a great attitude choose doom and gloom choice after choice... If I just focus on the choices I want to scream I feel shaky and overwhelmed don't want the pressure of my role making or breaking anything and your need for me to choose faster doesn't help Heart breaker no matter what path I choose and it's easier to weigh and consider other hearts than my own easier to go in and ask what I need to think of my own heart...is this STILL the case??! I don't want to feel like a contestant on love connection choosing which path will lead to greatness...to happiness is it 1, 2 or 3.....you tell me God You are the great all knowing One The One who create...

A thousand million diamonds embedded in the asphalt I am running on and they sparkle with promise   with encouragement   A road paved with my success if I am willing to travel it by foot A road that leads to a new body, a renewed mind and no matter how steep the challenge when I am running down the other side to victory I know it is worth every step Stardust trapped in tar all that potential trapped in me emerging in the night breeze while I wish I was running with you. ~C