waiting to understand

I crossed the street to the truck in the back of the cab a young girl lies there covered in a blanket half sleeping half awake she is homeless her mother has died she doesn't know her father is she my age? she could be but she looks so old so beaten down and I ask if I can touch her shoulder as I pray and I immediately feel connected in our pain in our commonalities compassion bridges gaps of lifestyle or circumstance and I cry as God gives me the words to comfort this girl and I walk back across the street and acknowledge her guardian a man with a heart of gold who has took her in and as I share our moment with him we both tear up we both understand. ~C

default verb definition 2 the program will default to its own style REVERT; select automatically default to love when the world becomes too much when all the rules get you tangled up and the shoulda woulda couldas get the best of you default to love when you are overwhelmed when the going gets tough and you try and you try but you just can't MAKE yourself default to love when you want to hurt someone or lash out or get revenge or you just wish they would disappear or move to Guam somewhere other than here default to love when you are weary and broken shattered tired all together hopeless unresponsive detached default to love because God is love because it is the greatest of these because it simplifies the mission and grounds us plants us within the plan and again we are rebooted reborn love it can be that simple if we default to it. ~C

You built your nest twig by tiny twig and you kept at it with purpose and a lot of it was emotional for you putting it together was like putting yourself together building it left you feeling like something was building inside you expectation and you had help from someone you loved and trusted who could see the nest finished too (or so you thought) and they seemed as excited as you did expectation and you lined it with bits of fluffy cotton and you got it just how you liked it you imagined baby birds you saw yourself snuggled next to your love in that same nest for all of your days expectation and then one day he flew away or maybe he wrecked the nest or maybe he pushed you out.... however the way.... you are dislocated dislodged from a place you once called home a place you got too used to a place you became comfortable with for a time lined with expectation and now it seems loves a crime that happened to you and hope eludes you and shadows taunt you what ifs and if onlys make you tos...

Tragic things happen things that test our faith things that just seem so random and heartbreaking but instead of doubting God in these situations we need to remember God is the love and the hope that rushes into that situation He is not the situation nor did He create it we will have to ask Him one day why He allowed it but that is where trust comes in we try to makes sense of everything through our human perspective we crave justice and yet we flirt with disaster and above all we find it almost impossible to give up control if it doesn't make sense, then it must not make sense we are more comfortable with playing God then we are with letting God be God and trusting that He is all knowing that His intentions are awesome that His love for us supersedes any kind of love we could create or experience His ways are above our ways His thought are above our thoughts this is a GOD of the UNIVERSE people! we can never comprehend the dynamic going on the intricate inner workings of a plan t...

I went to "soak" for the first time simply meaning I went to someones home with some other people and they played music and we all rested and listened to what God had to say to us then after we shared this is what God said to me.... You know how you can be with someone and be so content with them, so understood by them, that you do not need words? This is where I want you to be with me. This is the level of contentment I want you to feel and convey in your life. No need to say anything, and if I give you something to impart you will know. Remember the love relationship. Dwell on the way that I love you best. I love you perfectly. Come and rest with me. Let me look into your eyes and convey my love and my understanding, my compassion and my knowing, all within a look. Looking into you, and at you. You make me happy my love! (that part made me cry!) I will always want to hold your hand I will always receive your embrace and I will always be reaching out to you. You don't ha...

I tried to change I got rid of clutter I lost weight I tried to think of ways to make myself more attractive of ways to make him love me until I realized I can only control myself and did I really want someone to love me, because I MADE them? or tricked them? or convinced them? The true brand of love that sticks is one based on free will where someone willingly chooses to love you where they choose to stay because they want to God knew exactly what this meant He will not put you in a cage He will not twist your arm and although He runs after you and could easily catch you He will never force you to go with Him He is patient and kind He is gentle and compassionate He wants the very best for you but He will not MAKE you do anything He encourages you He loves you and He waits He waits and waits and waits.... and when you finally collapse in His arms He sighs a huge sigh Oh how He missed holding you and there is no guilt in that embrace He will not chastise you and if He knows that you wil...

there are so many elements that make a good fire A fire that will catch, and successfully burn If you have newspaper, but you don't have kindling it just doesn't create a high enough temperature to sustain enough heat.... and you could put a ton of newspaper in there but it is just a temporary burn the fire will consistently burn out before it can get the wood burning.... do you see the spiritual analogy yet??? So I think we search for ways to motivate ourselves spiritually WE SEARCH FOR WAYS see the problem? and all these ways, they lead to the temporary burn, that temporary high that brings us close to the Lord in that moment but then we leave Him where we found Him when we leave that moment but He wants to be with us always He wants to light you from within with all the right elements He wants to ignite you so that you burn the fruits of His spirit LOVE JOY PEACE FORBEARANCE KINDNESS GOODNESS FAITHFULNESS GENTLENESS SELF-CONTROL because if your life is producing these qualit...