Happy Brother

prayer answered
one I didn't even know I prayed
but my heart does

Everyone has to find their own way
in their own time
to rush them is futile
like trying to push a semi-truck
all it will do is give you a hernia
and when the truck does finally move
of it's own accord
it will be effortless
propelled from within
not from outside itself
and when we let that occur
when we let the people in our lives find their own way
in their own time
something is within that, that is divine
that is purposed and perfect

You were so mad awhile ago
and now the man I speak to
he is oozing with love
he is content and grounded
appreciated and at peace
and that man seeks forgiveness
no matter if it is justified or not
because of integrity
because he realizes the value of letting go
and how that is a gift he can give himself
by letting go of resentment or judgement or bitterness
He is choosing to not feed them anymore

and it is so obvious what that means for your life
the freedom from these things show
and there is not just lack from letting go
but replacements of those things
a deposit of freedom and love
forgiveness and peace
a gift that spreads outward
that not only touches the one you forgave
but the lives around that one
the relationships effected by that old grudge
are restored
and uncovered

You let the sunshine in
you drove away the darkness
and the time is perfect
because the time is now
found when you were ready
to really let go
to truly forgive
the gift you give another
the gift you give yourself
the gift
you gave me too, today
A gift I didn't even know I wanted so much
so thank you my Brother

~C

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