separate

dismantled

torn apart

pieces of a whole drifting out

and away from

once was

what was known

what was counted on

what was expected

and now loss is fresh

now home, is altered

and decisions have to be made

like a death

& having to choose a burial plot

but not like that

because you are still out there

only choosing to leave here

leave this family

does she take down your pictures then?

does she redecorate, or be haunted by you...

see your ghost in the living room chair

or see your memory in the garden like an apparition

while they mourn the loss of what you were to them here

of what you meant as part of a whole

but no longer connected

no longer choosing this

no longer wishing to be a part of

how can they not take that personally?

how can they be ok....?

and in time the brunt of it will wear down

but it is forever altered

the wound leaving a big scar across hearts

and the moment it happened, stood out

as if time, frozen....

that moment she knew you weren't coming back

that this home you've known for 21 years

is now separate from you

now it is something else

and the windows are all shattered

that is how it feels

and she walks on the glass

and cries out from the pain

you broke all the windows

and you broke her heart too

and you redefined home for her

you took yourself out of the equation

you moved on

and forced her to move on too

didn't you?

~C