Forgive and Forget

The most powerful person you can forgive is yourself

how do you put away something that was a snapshot in your own mind?

I am insanely visual and I don't think you can

it is a matter of facing it

then screaming at it if you need to

then punching it in the gut

but then making peace with it

looking it straight in the eyes and saying

"I forgive you."

I would imagine it is easy for God to forget once you ask

and throw it into the bottom of the deep blue sea

He has so much to manage he probably welcomes forgetting

probably has such a raging multitasking mind, that He is on in an instant

to more pressing issues, like all the good you've been doing

but you and me...

well that is a different story

we only have to manage us

one mind

one set of choices and triumphs and screw-ups

so everything is magnified

so forgetting is harder than forgiving

but I have found that once you forgive someone

then when you do remember the instance

you remember it in a detached way

seeing it only for what it was

and deflating it of most of the emotion and torment

like removing the stinger from a bee

the offense just buzzes at you

annoying but not stinging

remembered but not dismantling you

so in all honesty it may take a lobotomy to really forget

if you ask me,

and you did (hee hee)

but what really matters is the forgiveness

forgiving will set you free

it is key

it will transform a caterpillar to a butterfly

turn a cold hard winter into spring

~C