THE MOMENT

Torn between two
different
in ways that cannot be compared
the same
in that they both obtain
pieces of my heart
worn out
in trying to choose
to justify one
over the other
and so THE MOMENT is lived
and a different choice is made
with each step
never seeming to weigh enough
in any one direction
as if not making a definite decision
opens the door to many more
but in avoiding the illusion
amidst the chaos
I am wondering
who is choosing what
and who is choosing whom
THE MOMENT has a life all its own
a life that is not loyal to me
either

~C


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