Realize Your Worth

I cannot try to live up to your expectations
while also letting go
to let Him live through me
the 2 don't coincide
they cannot habituate
nor can I appreciate
the clash
and the pain
that drives me insane
when I try to mesh them
when I try to thrash out
might as well
throw the trash out
and live the way I was meant to
thrive in the way I was designed
no clash of the titans
my will and my mind too
must submit to the Higher
the Great magnifier
the One who knows me inside and out
the One who can get to me
in a way that transforms me
in a way that renews me
the way of the Only

So why do I hesitate
and try to alleviate
the woes of this world
with the false that only placates
the stuff that only breeds hate
the illusion that tries to mystify
the high that buys a momentary fly
on the wings of disillusionment
why I fool myself that there will be more of it

We know the answers deep inside
and avoid them over and over again with pride
be honest with you
and admit you don't know
admit that you're not sure which place you should go
but if Eternity beckoned
if you had a fleeting chance
would you recognize it for what it was?
would you step out with God?
would you realize your worth?

Don't you want to see what God designed you to do?
Don't you want to thrive and live and love and see
what He's got waiting once you get past you?
just beyond the horizon of your perspective
half way to surrender
way past letting go
there will be a fork in the road
and you won't have to wonder which way next
He'll walk right up
and escort you the rest
of the way
of the way
of the way
you'll never have to guess
breathe knowing there is no test
freedom
at its best
where time and you and God
co-exist

~C

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